I can't use "sai kang" anymore

am i being sanctified?
i cannot say the word "sai kang" anymore.
literally translated, it means, "shit work".
we used to say it for fun - like, hey let's be sai kang warrior!
said it in a positive way - go and serve by doing whatever needs to be done.

but. i dunno. i suddenly can't use the word anymore.
not without unease.

maybe that's how God works.
like, you keep your eyes fixed on Him. and HE does the cleansing.
you don't quite have to do that much; it doesn't require that much of an effort anymore.
cos all you have to do is keep your eyes fixed on Him. and He does everything.

He washes me clean (:

now i have to find a replacement for "sai kang warrior".
what sounds cool enough? hm.


Worship is the submission of all our nature to God.
It is the quickening of conscience by his holiness;
the nourishment of mind with his truth;
the purifying of imagination by his beauty;
the opening of the heart to his love;
the surrender of will to his purpose -
and all of this gathered up in adoration,
the most selfless emotion of which our nature is capable
and therefore the chief remedy for that self-centeredness
which is our original sin and the source of all actual sin.
–William Temple

oh come let us adore Him!