The Alabaster Jar
A good rare chat with Ian from his month away in Michigan, ie a 13 hour time difference from Singapore, time with church friends, and a cool night walk home.
Mm mm. Good day.
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Journal entry // 9 November 2008 // 2007hrs
I want to be like the woman with the Alabaster jar who abandoned herself. Totally. Didn't care what others thought. Just Jesus was her world. She beheld Him in her eyes. She only had eyes for Him. She gazed upon Him. Undistracted, nothing and no one else (opinions) mattered. She fixed her eyes on her one and only, and she did what she was compelled to do — she bowed down and washed His feet with her hair, her crown, her pride — all in total abandonment, with Jesus as her world, as the apple of her eye.
That's how much she loved Jesus. She was completely absorbed in Him. She couldn't take her "eyes" off Him.
How? It was a choice.
She did not care what they thought. It did not matter that they were religious people who knew the law. Because you see, as much as we are commanded to print His words on our hearts, above that, it is the Holy Spirit who guides us into all truth. He guides, we follow. That's how it works. Go with the flow. Unbound. No inhibitants.
That woman — she was truly free. Truly free to love to love and to give and to be who she was made to be (one to worship Him in total abandonment).
How can I go back to old life? I have been set free! No one goes into bondage and chains willingly. I will stay free. Because I can. So I will.
Jesus.
I fix my eyes upon You.
Mm mm. Good day.
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Journal entry // 9 November 2008 // 2007hrs
I want to be like the woman with the Alabaster jar who abandoned herself. Totally. Didn't care what others thought. Just Jesus was her world. She beheld Him in her eyes. She only had eyes for Him. She gazed upon Him. Undistracted, nothing and no one else (opinions) mattered. She fixed her eyes on her one and only, and she did what she was compelled to do — she bowed down and washed His feet with her hair, her crown, her pride — all in total abandonment, with Jesus as her world, as the apple of her eye.
That's how much she loved Jesus. She was completely absorbed in Him. She couldn't take her "eyes" off Him.
How? It was a choice.
She did not care what they thought. It did not matter that they were religious people who knew the law. Because you see, as much as we are commanded to print His words on our hearts, above that, it is the Holy Spirit who guides us into all truth. He guides, we follow. That's how it works. Go with the flow. Unbound. No inhibitants.
That woman — she was truly free. Truly free to love to love and to give and to be who she was made to be (one to worship Him in total abandonment).
How can I go back to old life? I have been set free! No one goes into bondage and chains willingly. I will stay free. Because I can. So I will.
Jesus.
I fix my eyes upon You.
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